Code

excluded

your secret language

I’ll never know

or understand

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Stillness

almost 9 months

something’s not right

~

the heartbeat

stopped —

the baby still needs

to be delivered

~

holding you

I’ve never felt

so helpless

~

we held him

we named him

~

he looked

so beautiful

so perfect

blood started

to seep out his nose

then all over

his face

~

my body froze

my heart screamed

~

ever since you died

I’ve wanted to believe

in a heaven

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Privileged

I didn’t know

what I had

until I met others

without

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My Dad’s Eulogy

my dad’s hands

best symbolize

his essence

~

if you’d ever

shaken my dad’s hand

you’d know

what I mean

~

his big hands,

thick, strong fingers

tough, worn skin

working hands

~

he wore them with a gritty

honesty, grace and dignity

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Being Maybe / Reprise (1)

caterpillar

crawling perspectives

I want my ashes

to breathe this air

~

Mutate

is this

the promise ?

~

dark stillness

tight lungs

wheeze, clench

~

appendages, choke

frantically, clawing

suffocating, ripping

drywall, shelving

~

frantically searching

light

~

some say

we’re only measured

by action

~

not intent

or words

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Silence

why are we scared to

expose

tell how we feel, how we worry

how we love

someone very close

~

why must we suffer

silence

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Dialogue

I’m listening

patiently waiting

to understand

our nature

~

my voice

whispering

your song

encircling our soul

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Being Maybe / Reprise (2)

cocoon

catharsis in chrysalis

I’m doubting

my way

to salvation

~

Believe

we all fear

becoming

what we fear

~

vulnerable

~

trust

our ignorance

in love

~

be still

keep dancing

life will not always

make sense

~

learn to love

our contradictions

we’re nothing

we’re everything

~

find comfort

in doubt

sometimes

it’s the only light

we’ll ever have

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“I learn by going where I have to go” ~ theodore roethke

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