excluded
your secret language
I’ll never know
or understand
~
~
almost 9 months
something’s not right
~
the heartbeat
stopped —
the baby still needs
to be delivered
~
holding you
I’ve never felt
so helpless
~
we held him
we named him
~
he looked
so beautiful
so perfect
blood started
to seep out his nose
then all over
his face
~
my body froze
my heart screamed
~
ever since you died
I’ve wanted to believe
in a heaven
~
~
we all fear
becoming
what we fear
~
vulnerable
~
trust
our ignorance
in love
~
be still
keep dancing
life will not always
make sense
~
learn to love
our contradictions
we’re nothing
we’re everything
~
find comfort
in doubt
sometimes
it’s the only light
we’ll ever have
~
“I learn by going where I have to go” ~ theodore roethke
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