excluded
your secret language
I’ll never know
or understand
~
~
when we lost
our son
we lost
each other
~
we were shells
empty
hurting
voids
~
different ways
of grieving
disconnected
us
~
our raw pain
forced unrealistic
expectations
upon ourselves
~
feeling
emotionally abandoned
unable to help
heal
~
I’m sorry
I let you down
when you needed
me
~
I’m learning
to forgive
myself
~
~
we all fear
becoming
what we fear
~
vulnerable
~
trust
our ignorance
in love
~
be still
keep dancing
life will not always
make sense
~
learn to love
our contradictions
we’re nothing
we’re everything
~
find comfort
in doubt
sometimes
it’s the only light
we’ll ever have
~
“I learn by going where I have to go” ~ theodore roethke
~
maybe
there’s no
black and white
~
merely labels
accumulating all colour
to absence of all
~
tick the box
there’ll be no logic
no right or wrong
when you’re with me
~
sharing
communicating
birds calling moons
painting sunrises
together
~
one
with love
believing
trusting
each other
~
I want
to start
a new religion called
maybe
~
~