almost 9 months

something’s not right


the heartbeat

stopped —

the baby still needs

to be delivered


holding you

I’ve never felt

so helpless


we held him

we named him


he looked

so beautiful

so perfect

blood started

to seep out his nose

then all over

his face


my body froze

my heart screamed


ever since you died

I’ve wanted to believe

in a heaven


my stillness