Anniversary Gift

when I pass

I want my ashes

to breathe this air

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as a child

your marriage

was my heaven

on earth

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Assault

a hockey rink

the day after

my dad’s funeral

~

an on-ice incident

explodes

in a dressing room

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I was jesus

in the temple

casting out sinners

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self-righteous

impulsive choices

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protecting my religion

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dishonouring

my father

my son

my holy spirit

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I’ll carry this cross

my shame

forever

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Being Maybe / Reprise (1)

caterpillar

crawling perspectives

I want my ashes

to breathe this air

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Section 2

cocoon

catharsis in chrysalis

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Mutate

is this

the promise ?

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dark stillness

tight lungs

wheeze, clench

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appendages, choke

frantically, clawing

suffocating, ripping

drywall, shelving

~

frantically searching

light

~

some say

we’re only measured

by action

~

not intent

or words

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Silence

why are we scared to

expose

tell how we feel, how we worry

how we love

someone very close

~

why must we suffer

silence

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Sexless

I’m naked

before you

hurt

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I’ve lost my courage

to try

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show me

how to nurture

your nature

~

show me

how to love

again

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Ghosts

haunting

timeless words

~

we’re sleepwalking

in loveless union

touching each other

radiating illusions

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I’m a silent sigh

penetrating imaginary boundaries

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Dialogue

I’m listening

patiently waiting

to understand

our nature

~

my voice

whispering

your song

encircling our soul

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Why God

we’re educated

to question, wonder

examine critically

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no longer fearing

hidden truths

behind sacred words

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I’m learning

to love compassionately

to accept

what I don’t understand

~

wide open

my heart, my eyes

acknowledging

my blindness

~

and that

is okay

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I’m doubting my way to salvation

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