Anniversary Gift when I pass I want my ashes to breathe this air ~ as a child your marriage was my heaven on earth ~ ~
Assault a hockey rink the day after my dad’s funeral ~ an on-ice incident explodes in a dressing room ~ I was jesus in the temple casting out sinners ~ self-righteous impulsive choices ~ protecting my religion ~ dishonouring my father my son my holy spirit ~ I’ll carry this cross my shame forever ~ ~
Mutate is this the promise ? ~ dark stillness tight lungs wheeze, clench ~ appendages, choke frantically, clawing suffocating, ripping drywall, shelving ~ frantically searching light ~ some say we’re only measured by action ~ not intent or words ~ ~
Silence why are we scared to expose tell how we feel, how we worry how we love someone very close ~ why must we suffer silence ~ ~
Sexless I’m naked before you hurt ~ I’ve lost my courage to try ~ show me how to nurture your nature ~ show me how to love again ~ ~
Ghosts haunting timeless words ~ we’re sleepwalking in loveless union touching each other radiating illusions ~ I’m a silent sigh penetrating imaginary boundaries ~ ~
Dialogue I’m listening patiently waiting to understand our nature ~ my voice whispering your song encircling our soul ~
Why God we’re educated to question, wonder examine critically ~ no longer fearing hidden truths behind sacred words ~ I’m learning to love compassionately to accept what I don’t understand ~ wide open my heart, my eyes acknowledging my blindness ~ and that is okay ~ I’m doubting my way to salvation ~ ~