almost 9 months
something’s not right
~
the heartbeat
stopped —
the baby still needs
to be delivered
~
holding you
I’ve never felt
so helpless
~
we held him
we named him
~
he looked
so beautiful
so perfect
blood started
to seep out his nose
then all over
his face
~
my body froze
my heart screamed
~
ever since you died
I’ve wanted to believe
in a heaven
~
~
Being Maybe 
I’ll never understand why things like this happen. Reading your work in the past and reading this now, my heart just aches for you. I hope you are well, Geo. ❤
thanks
daydreams in wonderland
~
after almost 8 years
and 4 year old daughter
everyday
shines stronger
I’m so glad to hear that. 🙂
You deserve the best.
P.S. I admire the amount of courage you have. Your poetry is a gift. Keep shining, always.
Thank you for sharing this heart wrenching moment with us.
somehow
these moments
enable me to connect
~
with
others
Reblogged this on Geo Sans and commented:
day five ~ my national poetry month website
writing therapy
healing my heart
honouring his spirit
I hear it gets easier. We are only months into sadness about a friends young boy and desperately hope it will. A heart wrenching post, beautifully written. My friend has very strong belief in heaven, I don’t but I do feel Dan around the place. I do agree at times Heaven is a lovely concept. I hope your little one is keeping an eye on Mom, Dad and little sister.
thank you tric
~
today walking along the river
watching pink salmon berries bloom
with my daughter
~
over time
I’m more aware
of appreciating those small moments
of beauty
Loss changes us. Loss of a child changes everything.
Heartbraking, and I admire you greatly for sharing this.
thank you
~
writing
has helped
healing
Oh, God, what a riveting, poem. I am so sorry for your loss. In Mexico, the tradition has existed for a very long time to take the picture of the baby at his/her passing. They are called “angelitos,” little angels and it is believed that what was painted, and now photographed, is a real angel. I believe that and than you for sharing your angel baby with us. Love to you.
my little
~
angelito
Yes! Your little angelito.
Your heart always speaks through your words, Geo Sans. As you bravely share your personal loss and pain, your journey of healing is not traveled alone.
thank you mishunderstood
~
writing
sharing
has helped immensely
with healing
Moments like this never leave our minds. I have a few of those. But it’s good you can write about it, not good to keep it all inside. And you speak of it so well Geo!
thank you
~
early may
would have been
his eighth
birthday
This is as haunting and heart-wrenching as it was when you published it last year … and, I still can’t find the right words to say … other than I’m so very sorry